So, first thing first, let me push my god awful day at you. Basically, I learned I'm going to have to pay a shit ton of money to fix my teeth. Even better, the thought of all that money literally started making me cry in the office, but fortunately I was able to hold in my panic attack until I started driving home. Then my significant other decided to drop the bomb, over text mind you, that they felt things weren't really working out between us and if we don't change our pattern, we won't work out. Those two significant things plus a bunch of other crap all put together cause me to snap and I've been a blubbering mess all day. Sometimes things just really hit ya hard, ya know? I don't have it as hard as most people, but going broke over bad teeth is not my idea of good life, and the prospect of facing the future totally alone is also terrifying. Plus panic attacks only make me feel shittier.
No matter, I'll work it out. I usually do, and I've made it this far and all I can do is go up. I've hit rock bottom, and days like today are only stumbling blocks as I move forward. I mean, we all feel pretty worthless sometimes, right? Or helpless or pathetic, both of which seriously suck. But, more importantly, you got to recognize those feelings and just let yourself know that that moment of hard feelings doesn't define you.
Bad days are never just one bad thing usually. There's always one shit thing that starts your day off, and nothing else really goes well. And to make it worse some other shit thing happens that day. It doesn't really have to be the most horrible thing, but it's something that just pushes you off the edge. That's the basic formula for a truly terrible fucking day. And once you got a terrible day over your head, there's not much you can do but mope. It's hard to be happy when you, say, fail a test and the find out someone keyed your car in the parking lot. It's just a wreck. I find the best way to deal with shit days is just to let them be.
Listen to sad music, cry when no ones looking, hug your pillow pet, question reality. Let the sadness get to you, but don't let it rule you. Some days you just gotta feel low so the next day you can feel high as a kite. The happiness won't come back right away, but once you pass what I call the "roll around in your own tears" phase is when things start to go back up hill. Once you start to feel less like a pile of rejected iPhones, turn off your sad music, put away the sweets and go do something. Whether its a store run for more healthy snack or jog around the block, just get out of your comfort zone a little. Let the world bring you back to earth, get moving and let the endorphins get back in your blood stream. Literally just standing up and walking around a bit will help clear your head and make you feel better pretty quickly. Surprising I know, who thought physical activity of any sort would make you feel better. The human body is weird.
Now the last thing I do to get out of my bad day rut, is take a motherfuckin bubble bath. Its my comfort zone, and being surrounded in steamy water helps clear my head and relaxes me. And I usually watch my comfort show while I soak in the over-heated water, Community. It always makes me smile when I feel like poop. Now, your "comfort zone" is probably different then mine, but this is my recommendation, it works wonders for me. Maybe you like to watch your favorite movie and sit in a burrito blanket while doodling nsfw doodles of your current OTP, I dunno. But whatever floats your boat to a happy place is usually what brightens the day a little. Now, you're not going to be cured of your sadness, you're gonna think the day still totally sucked, sorry its true. The key is to just not go to sleep resentful. That extends the shittiness of the day, trust me I know and you probably know too. Try going to sleep with a least faint smile on your cute lil face. Even if you don't wan to, faking it until you make it is a magical thing.
NOW enough of the moderately pathetic shitty day survival guide. I'm gonna go take my comfort zone bath and watch the new season of Community some more. I wrote out my feelings, and feeling better already. Hope it might of helped you out a little too. Radical. Peace Out.
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